Where, at work and home, are you trying to strike a bargain that looks like this?
“When X becomes true, then I will be happy, satisfied, or free.”
No need for the conditional. You can choose to be happy, satisfied, and free right now and whenever.
In your corner,
Mike
PS: Choosing to be happy, satisfied, or free will not wreck your ambition. It will sweeten it.
PPS: The trick is not to try to stay happy. The trick is to re-choose happy as quickly and as often as you can.